||[Jul. 28th, 2004|03:55 pm]
I woke up with these weird red bumps on my arms. I think theres something eating me in my sleep. Seriously. Bed bugs. EEEK. And Im supossed to go out tonite and my arms look yucky. Sadness. How hot is it? Could I pull off long sleves?
"I wanna hang on to something that wont break away or fall apart like the pieces of my broken heart"
Its kinda weird I think, that I sit here and long for something that Ive never had. How can I miss it if I dont even know what it is? I just want someone to hold me. Someone to see me. But Ive never had that, how do I know I want it? Sometimes I feel so invisible... I really do feel like Im destined to be alone. To watch everyone I love end up happy, and to have that myself... It feels so pointless to even like guys, when I can never have them. I always end up the friend. Nothing more. And that just seems like its how it will always be. Why cant you see me?
It's only 4pm. where is this emoness coming from?